Do stress and anxiety limit your participation in the hobby? It could be when it come to play games or to participate at events but it can also be when you try to create gaming material.
I accumulate a lot of stress and anxiety due to my precarious financial situation and how it limit my transition, I often feel in a dead end and it strongly affect me emotionally. I often have a hard time playing in online games sessions because too many things worries me. The stress due to my limited transition often undermine my self confidence and make it very hard for me to participate in gaming or art events, like yesterday I cancelled my participation to Gauntlet Con because the combined stress of my personal life and the event is just too big for me to handle.
This even affect my personal projects. Yesterday I nearly deleted my Comet Crawl project and other things I was working on because I felt that I will never be able to finish anything. There is a strong demand for my art but I have to refuse a lot of commissions because they inject too much additional stress. I also often had to refuse to work on interesting projects because of this, like during the G+ era, Patrick Stuart offered me to illustrate a whole book for him, kind of like Silent Titans but I had to refuse due to stress, I also had to back down from illustrating the Garden of Ynn (I was so enthusiastic for this one). I so often feel hindered and limited by how stress and anxiety affect that I sometime think of disengaging totally from the hobby or even from art. What is frustrating is that I often better periods where I handle stress better and I start having hope and get enthusiastic again about running games and working on projects and then I get a anxiety spike and I have to abandon nearly everything again.
I guess that what I am trying to say is that some creative people have important personal barriers of entries into the hobby, both as participants and as creators. I often isolate myself because of this, because I feel guilt over not being functional, because I imagine that everyone else are functional, participate to events, publish books and realize beautiful projects all the time.
I don’t have much solutions but because of how I felt yesterday and the things I had to cancel again, I wanted to at least offer a testimony and to bring some awareness.